On the Question of God

Is God real? Is Christ really the savior of mankind? Is there a heaven and a hell? Did Jesus die and rise from the dead? If I don’t believe these things does that mean I’m going to hell?

When I ponder these questions I am reminded of the argument for being a Christian that basically says that if you are a Christian and you are wrong then you’ll still be fine, since there’s no hell. But, if you aren’t a Christian and you are wrong then you screwed royally. In other words, better to be safe than sorry. It does make sense, although probably not the best reason to be a Christian

For the past several months, almost a year now, I have been trying to believe in God, to accept Christ, but I can’t. I have gone through every “reason to believe” argument that I can come across, but nothing seems to work. I have been stuck on the aforementioned one because it seems to be so simply easy to follow, but apparently fear does not produce faith. If Paul had said that I am saved by grace through going to church or reading the bible, or being a good person, I would be fine, but apparently I need faith, and that is something I just don’t have.

I wonder if I will ever get it back.

230 and still counting

I celebrated our nations birth at EPCOT this year. There's nothing like 20 minutes of a flaming lake, lasers, and burning paticles to make one feel patriotic. At least it should make one feel patriotic. I haven't been feeling very patriotic lately, and this show didn't really help, although it was a good show. Thus I don't feel up to writing any sort of good birthday message for our nation, so I think I will just leave it at that.